dickipedia:

Friend: I have a job, a car and I’m doing really well in school, what about you?

Me:

I feel as if Im not good enough to raise children, im not good enough to study medicine. IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH. you know what fucking sucks? feeling that way when you have so much on your plate. *oh yeah you have sooo much on your plate and its not even half of what other people may feel.* look, its not a case of having or not having. Its DOUBT. doubt Ill ever be good at anything, is doubt that youll be able to raise another human being, doubt that you wont fuck up youre relationship because of stupid mind sets of your own. Doubt that you ll ever grow somehow when youre so squinty and small in the inside. Doubt that you wont be hurt when you think about your dead parent, that that wont rule over everything. DOUBT. ALL OF THESE THINGS I DONT DOUBT BUT I FEAR I WILL ONE DAY. I am. HUMAN to doubt to be afraid. But im not so sure about my life. I dont know man just random ass feelings at 4 am. God just give me the strength to not feeel this way, or to overcome this. Just
ugh. Good night